Well, here we are. Monday evening and I am trying to bang this first post out in the middle of a hectic, crazy and full day……To me this is procrastination and it’s making me a little nutty.
To lots of other people this is just how things get done.
And so I am literally surrounded by an untidy kitchen, in my still Halloween spirited home, typing this out now because Mr. and Baby Reinvention are at Tae Kwon Do and it’s blissfully quiet.
I thought it may be fun to do a lighter weekly post because, well, bluntly put- I recognize that I am a lot. My posts are often emotionally intense and jarring. And while I am happy to go down that cathartic road with you, that is not all of who I am. I am presuming the same of you.
I know my tribespeople are colorful and rich in emotional range and texture. So let’s take a few minutes weekly to perk up a bit.
Hence, health and beauty talk. Or as I am dubbing it “Keeping It Right and Tight Tuesdays”.
This is a place where I will discuss some of my adventures and misadventures in the realm of products, services, exercises, diet, clothing…….The whole gamut of looking good to feel good.
While I have loads of material to discuss (I am not afraid to try weird shit if it may bring me results!). I thought an interesting place to begin would be with the quote first attributed to Margaret Wolfe Hungerford “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” Implying that beauty is subjective. I am hyperaware of that implication but this recent pondering and traversing back through my life and my perceptions of beauty has left me with the realization that for many many years I allowed others to define my sense of beauty both internally and externally. I recognize that we cannot exist in a bubble unswayed by our constant interactions with society but at what point do we say “Fuck that, I like what I like. I AM THE BEHOLDER! Or at least the one who should matter most to me.”
I think personally, I am newly arrived at this place of freedom. I have acquired the power of owning and rocking my unique expression of beauty, however I want. The change is not in what I like or how I wear what I choose to wear. I have marched to the beat of my own fashion drum for a long time. The difference is that now I am embracing being the beholder for my beauty. Rather than solely attempting to elicit an emotional reaction or acceptance in others. How did I finally take my power back? Honestly, I am not entirely sure. I think I just stopped living my life according to anyone’s opinions but my own. Perhaps a gift of wisdom at turning 40. The “Zero Fucks Club” was coined between myself and some girlfriends as we all began to recognize this conclusion. I need to live for me. My happiness matters. My dreams matter. I matter. And life is short.
With that being said, here are some things that make me feel beautiful right now:
- My body is stronger and in better shape than it has ever been. I feel healthy and full of vitality.
- I love finding interesting pieces of clothing then curating an outfit that is a total “Wow” look.
- My daughter once told me that my eyes are like snowflakes. I would have to agree.
- Playing with different makeup styles, hair colors and clothing is a fun way for me to express myself creatively.
- I adore every single tattoo that is part of me.
I think this is a great jumping off point for our new Tuesday easy breezy content. Let’s make it more fun by sharing one thing about yourself that makes you feel beautiful.
xxxxxxx- Own your gorgeous!