Acceptance as a SAHM

It’s early morning. I am sitting outside on our patio. The morning is glorious. Taking a few moments to journal, read a meditation, gather myself for the day ahead. I hear my neighbors scurrying and bustling into their cars. Most heading off to work. I hear the traffic from the nearby road. The sounds of various size and models of vehicles traveling from one destination to the next. I used to be one of those people. Hustling into my uniform and out the door, coffee and breakfast in hand. Hurrying off to my job at the clinic.

Now my work is here at home. Where I choose to be. Where I am lucky enough to manage our home and those special people within. I get to be the heart of how “us” works. I am raising and educating a little human. “Though she be but little, she is fierce.” Our girl is a force. I have no doubt that she will change the world. She already has. This may be the greatest of most important contribution I make in my life. I think I am learning, finally, how to accept this wondrous gift. Not just accept but embrace- wholeheartedly. Putting to bed all the fear, insecurities and doubt that plagued my first few years. It’s alarming how much value one places on monetary compensation for a salary job rather than the soul compensation that comes along with helping a human grow and find their place. Guiding their way. Shifting the world. Butterfly effect.

Today, I feel alright about not bringing home a paycheck.

Today, I see and feel my value.

Today, acknowledging my worth creates space for a deeper, freer commitment to our home. No strings. No guilt. No flip-flopping, conjuring up potential careers and opportunities and side hustles.

Today, I don’t need that. In fact, I haven’t needed those strategies since our family made this shift. I was not ready to see that though.

Whatever my future may hold. Here is my now. They are my present appointment. I embrace this charge gratefully. Proudly, I own “Stay at home mama”. There is no shame in schooling and raising a human while captaining a home.

I give my all.

6 thoughts on “Acceptance as a SAHM

  1. She couldn’t be any cuter if you tried! SAHM is serious work, you don’t get days off, you don’t have set hours, and it’s not like you get to leave your “work” problems behind.
    On the other hand, it’s the best damned job in the world. You’re there for someone who is growing and finding their path. You get to explore and learn with them. You get to see all the golden moments.
    Rock on, Mama!

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  2. “It’s alarming how much value one places on monetary compensation for a salary job rather than the soul compensation that comes along with helping a human grow and find their place. Guiding their way. Shifting the world. Butterfly effect.”

    This is beautiful and so true.

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  3. Loved this so much. Your little person is an amazing child. So much of her momma. I know I can’t go back and change the past, but if I could I would have made any sacrifice to spend more quality time with my girls. Missed so much. I do not take for granted time spent with my now very grown girls or my granddaughters and now my mom. Your value is priceless, so very priceless. You can’t put a price on what you are giving your family and yourself. Love you.

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    1. Thank you so much! Missing you! Hope you are staying well!

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