Well, another week is drawing to a close and I don’t know quite where the time scampered off to.
Somehow with the increase in my free time due to staying at home as much as possible, somehow, I have less time? Or time is getting away from me. Truth be told there is a lot more frittering and flitting around. It feels as though I am much more easily distracted and am having a tough time staying on task. Thanks, anxiety. Also, admittedly, I am spending more time on the internet and social media researching, digging, reading, bantering. Trying to stay current and aware and follow what is happening. Though I have little faith in information sources. Just keep that focus outward so I don’t have to deal with the inner turmoil.
My emotional self-care has tanked. I did pretty well for awhile but I recognize I’ve fallen into a slump. Actually I recognized it last week and made a mental commitment to address it this week.
And yet, here I am. It’s Friday. No real change to speak of on my behalf.
I know that if I put forth the effort required to take better care of myself by voluntarily tuning out and not participating in the bullshit at large (because I have no control to change it), to get adequate rest, to stop the nightly routine of a stiff drink before bed to dampen the anxiety, to be consistent with my morning journaling and meditation I will probably feel better.
For some reason I am just not willing to go there right now.
I reasoned to myself what I know to be true. Sometimes poor coping skills and unhealthy behaviors feel easier because they are familiar and comfortable. Path of least resistance and all. At least I am not belittling nor mentally flogging myself over it. That’s a positive shift.
I am better than this. I deserve more than this. This fog of daily out of focus attention or fuzzily going through the motions because my mind is swirling with anything but the HERE AND NOW. I deserve my attention to presence. I deserve to live in the now. I deserve to give myself my best version of me.
How is your emotional self-care? What do you employ to stay positive and mentally healthy?
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